Thursday, November 29, 2007
the beat moved and grooved; feel the beat .// [x 5:35 PM x]
he said:
HE left for Melbourne just now around 8pm. HE didnt want us to tell you that HE was back in singapore since last month so HE got us to lie to you that he will be coming back this week. HE wanted to leave you a note but HE thought you wouldnt read it, so HE got me to tell you this.
HE told me to tell you, today is the day he first met you. he couldnt believe how fast time have past. HE wanted you to know how wonderful to be able to spend those 2 month plus together with you. HE wished it could be longer but like you always say, somethings are too late for regret. Although HE didnt want to, HE couldnt force you to stay when you didnt want to. This time when HE came back, HE dont know when is he coming back again. HE wanted to meet you,even as a friend, but knowing you, HE say you will feel awkward and guilty. So HE left without meeting you. But HE wants you to know, that was the best 2 mths of his life, and HE cherished all the good and bad times. HE also want to say goodbye and take care and sorry for not saying a proper goodbye.
felina, i dont think HE wants you to know, but, HE saw you that day you were sitting at a bench reading your notes in your afterwork attire(just like last time) at parkway. HE said to me, that's felina, innocent at the same time, serious., the very thing that i love about her the most. and HE said HE dont have to worry about you now, since you looked like you moved on and enjoying life. Recently, HE somehow got hold of your blog address.. HE was at my house when he read your blog. i saw HIM being sad and moody for quite awhile, but later smiled to himself, and said to me, at least she had moved on, enjoying her life now, and oh, she may have someone she likes now. i dont have to worry about her and should move on too..
i dont know what to say
my whole mind went numb
everything happened too fast.
i couldnt react to it then.
the aftereffect came when i cried myself to sleep after that
to HIM if he's reading this:
what i can say now is that im sorry
that in the end, things couldnt work out
and thank you for those times too
please take care
and i also want you to know
you are really an awesome guy
so, this is goodbye
and when i look back at this memories
i will smile and laugh the way you always made me
for i know there was once a upon a time
drained and numbed
felina
