Saturday, January 12, 2008
the beat moved and grooved; feel the beat .// [x 11:46 PM x]
i have been thinking alot over really random stuffs these few days.. there's so many things to do. and i'm tired. everything seems to come at one go. no matter how much i try to avoid them or not to think about them, things just come against me. im not sure whether i am making sense now.. but, it's how i feel about things right now. i'm feeling uncertain over things that i should have confidence in. there's no reason in explaining why, but those are the things im brooding over, and have completely no idea what should do.
so many things to consider. and things are just suffocating me.. memories just kept pouring back. feelings kept flowing back. it's like i decided to take a jog down the memory lane. things that i do not wish to remember, resurfaced again, and they just open old wounds once more. of course, there's things and events that are worth reminiscing. still.
im having a headache with all that thinking. like this afternoon. felt like the mind is closing on inside of me. some part of me want to isolate myself somewhere, and recluse and just think about nothing. seems so ascetic of me. tsk tsk. back to the point.
of course i know, knowing myself, i just think even more nonsense if i lone myself away from my friends. it happened once and it undoubtedly will repeat itself if i do that again. haa.
once again, im at crossroads at what to do. things that i thought were solved, came rushing back and slamming me right into the face, throwing me off scale. i certainly hope these wont be here to stay. afterall, there's so many things in life worth my smiles.
i surrender happily~
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust I've got my heart set on anywhere but here