you are too good to be true. almost everything that i ask for, you lack of none. i have my doubts, i have my qualms, but you know what they say, time will tell. there is much hesitance here. but i dont want let go of this so easily. i want to see how things go. im not those who will jump at the chance, but when time comes, i won't let go of this chance. hold on to your words, and i will to mine. prove me correct and stay true to the image that you had painted. there''s so much to clarify and i hate making the first move.
yet, truth be known, im holding back, and i know the reasons why. somehow, the shadow of the past just bring back feelings i thought were long gone. memories just start resurfacing, and like some cancerous cells, it's invading my mind. you really messed up my mind. and somehow, i want to chase after the shadows too. what if, behind the shadow, lies the real deal? will i miss out eventually? or maybe, there's nothing there, nothing that i should look forward too?

why do i have to keep chasing after you
knowing that there may not be anything there
bells are ringing, time is ticking.
it's time to move on.
but you ain't helping.
another come along, and i just played along.
only to realise i sunk deep down under.
in midst of struggling, you came into my mind.
a surge of happiness just bloomed
and all of a sudden, i became an idiot.
for the past.

i'm really a walking contradict, arent i?