once again, happy birthday roomie!
hope you like the presents, company and all the fun!
we'll bowl in school next time, get your steps right by then!
and hopefully the camera is workable, even though the processing sound seems really dubious.

school's still school, but im beginning to like more modules now. lectures as boring they are, they actually do make more sense now. actually im pretty glad i'm in banking and finance sector. now when i hear adults discussing about the financial turmoil, it no longer sound like a whole load of jargon to me.

damn tired, it's just jared, tutorial and bed.
sick and tired of being sick and tired.


-loves n kisses-
felina

You are currently running the risk of freezing under all the thinking you're doing.

friendster horoscope

is that a sign?
HAHAHA


***
ended up going school. thought it will b a boring day in lectures, but it's just my day to see alastair at mrt control station.
apparently he was trying to sneak away without me noticing him. like i would hardly notice a guy covering his face while he walks.
he said he was trying to avoid me so i won't pull him back to lectures. he was so right. guess who ended up in the lectures with me.

HSM3 wasn't a success. the tickets sold out when we reached there. BUT the trip wasn't entirely futile. bff and i had a good heart-to-heart-to-nonsense talk over gelare waffles, and beef chili cheese fries. and feeling utterly sinful, we went for a short walk from pasir ris to tampines sunplaza park to play the swings. and for records, the dares i made for myself, they are way freaky, God and audrey be my witness.

and we suck at wliia.

busted. way busted. I don't know what now. in fact, im pretty unsure of anything, even the idea of going out of my room seems forlorn.

im using my phone to blog, smart phones, smart indeed. th keyboard still suck.

I never fully realized th graciousness of my parents. and I just realized im way spoilt as compared to my two sisters.

I gotta get a grip.


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there's only this much i can do, and i just want a way out from this mess i created myself.
monday blues indeed. ):

***
there's so many things running across my mind and they are quite a headache just to think about it.
i know exactly who and what can cure this misery. the finest remedy in my opinion.


Happy Birthday Daddy
i know you love me the most, and i love you too. not because of the things u have given me, but cause you are my daddy, and the undeserving love that you constantly shower on me, despite what i have done.

splitting headache since second service started. think it's the lack of sleep. ):

but i still like serving, with the children, teachers and me!
those so many kids i adore. them and their simple trains of thoughts really fascinates me, and in their own special ways, they taught me a lot.
all of them. the unique thing about kids. there's no way to fault them, yet.

everything seem a tad lot better. i knew my GOD will see me through, like what He promised, He'll never forsake me.
anyhoo

snap snap snap.
i'm having fun with the DSLR cherrie got from school. watch me turn pro people.
as much as i enjoy taking photos and all, i sincerely dread going out with raphael and cherrie the next time when they say "shopping" and "camera". just so you know, i spent almost the entire afternoon, floating around camera shops, best denki, looking at lenses, camera bodies and catalogues. I GOT SHORT ATTETNION SPAN LA!
God knows how many times i punched raphael for suggesting more camera-window-shopping.
oh well, even it's not about the camera, he still get punched by me. i swear that his reflex actions are getting better.
grins.
and he has to stop teasing me about THAT.

dropped the couple a visit with cookies and chocolates. as promised alright, only it isn't snoopy.
C is for cookey, and that's good enough for me.
Cookey Cookey Cookey starts with a C.

walked around vivo and went to this spiffy icecream/pastries cafe, near ben and jerry. talk about competition. the place is called bonbon tea or bonboncafe if you want to check it out.
the ice cream is really yummy, and it goes exceptionally well with the humongous waffle cone.
speaking of ben n jerry, i spied two tubs of BnJ ice cream in the plastic bag the person sitting beside me on the bus ride home was holding.
i would have robbed him if not for the scoop of earl grey chocolate ice cream i had earlier on.

righto. im going to continue snapping frosty's photo with the camera before i glue myself to my bed.
serving tomorrow.
YEEHAAA!

-loves n kisses-
felina

yesterday was really a series of unfortunate events.
bad bad events.

"I hear your name in certain circles,
and it always makes me smile
I spend my time thinkin' about you,
and it's almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that's breaking down
this long distance line tonight"

-John Waite


shitshitshitshit

********
it's been raining and drizzling and raining these few days.

Sunshine after the rain
There will be blue skies comin', blue skies comin'

hopefully EVERYTHING gets better now.

as at midnight.

so super duper embarrassing!
want a dig a hole and bury myself in there till the day after eternity

second thought of the day.
i'm thinking, after much analysis, you MAYBE did everything on purpose.
knowing full well i'll fall for it.
damn. but it's MAYBE.

sorry for being all so petty over nothing really.

SHAKE IT LIKE A POLAROID PEEKTURE!


i have no idea why i'm going school everyday. i'm noteless, but i have a willing heart to learn, that's provided that i'm not feeling sleepy.

besides than having a heart willing to learn, i have friends to keep my company. people like, boonyen, yiling and of course, audrey~

simple dinner at our all time favorite restaurant proved to be as enjoyable as ever, and random talkshit can lighten and brighten up the day.
and aud's new toy( her birthday present) was a fabulous tool to capture the special moments.



lurrbee chews long long time~

they say i look pale, and i feel so damn tired even after i tried getting back the rest i lost.
and when i sleep, i'm super fidgetive. i spent an hour plus finding the perfect sleeping position.

and damn it.
i'm really at lost i should just forget about it right?

-loves n kisses-
felina

i'm so tired and i'm so broke and i love today's church service.

auddie baby~
i'm glad you enjoyed yourself thoroughly and you'll get your present soon!
:D

as much as i don't like angelina jolie, she and brad pitt are a match in heaven in Mr. and Mrs. Smith. so cool so hot.

school's tmr. ):

yawn.

i love watching madTV again~
the powerslut girls!


and i believe i have a nuthead for an eldest sis. i'm sure you have familiarized yourself with Lindy, my da jie, who got my house, her car, her bed and whatever she can get her hands on HK-fied.
do add another crazy fetish of hers to the list, Precious Moments figurines.

she just spent a whopping 1k over on clays today at some limited Precious Moments fair, and as adorable they are, the money can be put to better use, e.g. donating it to her youngest sister, who's currently broke like a kinder bueno.
that's not the end to her problems.
now she has problems telling dad n mum about it, and she has no idea where she's going to hide the new spoils.
think she got sick of all the branded bags, clothes, wallets, and moved onto greener pastures.



-loves n kisses-
felina

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIHANG!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KHADIJAH!

:D

school has started for almost a week now, and i'm getting used (again) to the timings and the thought of traveling halfway across Singapore for school.

this week is a series of unfortunate events.

1. tuesday was lectures throughout, and i made a mental note to myself that i must bring a sweater along so that i won't freeze to death in the halls.

2. after school on wednesday, i went to watch burn after reading with junwei, boonyen, peiwen, alast, and josiah. man, that movie sucks! it's so draggy, boring and made no sense at all! to think i was anticipating the movie, cause george clooney and brad pitt were casted in this movie.
so trust me, this show ought to be fed to the dogs. but, brad pitt was pretty good as a goofy gym instructor.
supper at night and i made josiah walked the wrong way. oh well, at least he knows the sheltered way home now, and thanks to me, we got a ride to sempang from his father.

3. on the way home after supper, we got scolded for making a nuisance in public by this old guy. weirdly, im not as affected as josiah and junwei.
phrase of the day:"f**king hooligans"
justice?

4. and today! all lessons except the first one were canceled. so, i end up going school for an hour, and leaving for town after school, and spent quite a bomb on shopping. going shopping with peiwen was probably the worst idea. we keep burning holes in each other wallets.

5. and i'm really pissed now, shit.

no -loves n kisses-
felina

continuing from yesterday where i left,

more pictures!

as tired as i am today, i just have to blog about today before i'm overwhelm by school work.
and this shall be my last post before school reopens, big deal rrriiiggghhhtt

anyhoo!
every single moment today was spent worthwhile, even the awaking moment.

my sweet slumber was awoken by, first daddy's phone call and strings of messages that flooded my inbox soon after. funny, how they all come in just when i picked up the phone. at all the disturbance and what not, i have no choice, but to wake up and get ready for church.

off to church i went, and served for an hour before going for second service with mummy, and den lunch. nothing much there, but i really love kids, and so long they cry with a reason, im cool with it.

oh! before i carry on with my own personal story telling, i just want to apologise for cancelling on you so last minute. heh.

met with hoonie and veralyn, to carry out "destress the jc-ians" mission. and as expected, all of us were late. or rather yushu and sabrina were just too early. the three of us, us meaning those nothing better to do people- obviously not the jc people, went to buy all the necessary stuffs required. cut the long story short, i played the "kidnapping" prank on both sab and yushu, the very same one peiwen and all played on me on my birthday. blasting the music into their ears and blindfolding them, we cabbed over to pasir ris park to have our little picnic.
you bet yushu and sabrina were surprised, well, they ought to be! afterall, this was meant to be a surprise.

hope you two are less stress over As now and that this outing, last minute as it is, have cheered you up a great deal. one good remedy to destress, is reliving childhood memories, and eating icecream under the sun, and sharing them with your oldest and truest friends, especially friends who seen the ugliest side of you, went through thick and thin with you, and always there when you need them, and still love you for being just you.

without further ado, pictures!
yes, we do spastic and we go glutton.

how could this happen to me!
stupid ink! spill just when the whole card is done! @#$%^&&^%$$^*()($#&*)@#!!!
i knew i shouldn't use that bottle, should have follow the spirit.
RAH!

thank god for being artsy fartsy and able to make use of resources. ha! gift!

damn, i really feel like playing swing and eating icecream at this hour!
hoochie mama, this is weird!

just to keep an update with my life, so i can account for me being so tired these few days.

on tuesday.
gems registration alone has taken a toll on me, draining me of my energy. but meeting up with the girls recharged me. and i just love planning birthdays, especially for the people i love. i love the adrenaline rush, it makes me feel as though i have pulled off something spectacular that left an impression on people's life, and that i have this streak of creativity in my bones.
so, what happened was, all of us were late(THANKS TO STUPID GEMS), making us have to cab down, so we could reach there earlier than the birthday girl to prepare the room.

birthday girl reached earlier than we expected, so audd left to pick her up, and passed her the essentials. i stayed in the room, blowing balloons, and my cheeks felt overstretched.
the essentials i'm talking about are, a big bright red cardboard that reads" I'M DA BIRTHDAY GIRL PLEASE SING ME A 生日song", and a tiara. :D the board, though last minute, had the effect and outcome that was planned. people actually sang birthday song to boonyen! HAHA! at bugis and clarke quay! and it's quite a handful of them who sang! so neat! i didn't expect singaporeans to do it.

so afternoon was karaoke, and finishing up the last touches to the birthday card that yiling made, which was way adorable! we made her carry 18 balloons too. love the balloons! they are so colourful they make me smile.
around 6, me and yiling made our way to harbourfront, to collect boonyen's birthday cake, while aud brought the birthday girl to clarke quay, where we had JUMBO for dinner, which was joined by the guys( ch, zm, yh and kelv) and sus. too bad we didn't take any picture for dinner. we had crabs, mantou, prawns, beancurd, kangkong, chicken, and dessert. i'd give ten thumbs up if i have them.
my mood was slightly dampened by gems once again, and had too many long conversations on the phone with friends to sort the gems crap out. and cause i was talking on the phone with jo about the gems thing, i neglected yiling while looking for an isolated place to carry out the "sweet sweet" surprise( which was half a success), sorry girl~

yes, the surprise was half-a-success, cause it didn't create the effect we wanted, but we managed to accomplish half of the mission, by burning part of the design, and just planning it alone made me feel victorious.
the design

-loves n kisses-
felina

zouk and phuture yesterday was the dullest i ever been to. the music was pretty sucky, and the drinks tasted weird so we didn't drink much, and we just couldn't hit high at times. thankfully, we dont have pay a cent of the drinks (only paid for one drink). pardon for sounding so singaporean.

all in all, yesterday was fun, but not as fun as thought. by far, the worst experience.

and i changed my gems once more, to INTRODUCTION TO SEAMANSHIP BLAH BLAH BLAH. yes it sounds boring i know, it's at t1(damn far, i know), but at least my friday's 5 hours break is gone, my tuesday timetable back to normal, and i have peiwen to accompany me in class, yiling, boonyen's classes are at t1 as well.


oh! im gonna name my kid, AMARIS.
why. cause this

Conjugating

Emily Adlam, Diocesan School for Girls, Auckland

amo, amas, amat, amamus, amatis, amant
this morning, I wrote out 126 forms
of the verb to love
in Latin

how wonderfully strange
to spend half an hour
writing amabam amabas amabat
I was loving, you were loving, he was loving

I can talk about love in six tenses
and for many different people
and of course we all know
that love can be
passive
or active

I can say amabit, he will love
or amatus sunt, they were loved
and even amaverimus, we will have loved

and furthermore, I can say it all
in two different moods
funny to think if a word having moods
I should like to think of words
being in joyful moods or exalting moods
in fact the only choices
are subjunctive or indicative
rather dense and depressing ways to describe them

but oddly, these moods translate
the same
and there seems a beautiful pointlessness
in being able to say
amaveram or amavissem
both meaning I had loved

but perhaps the best is amaris
what a name it would be for a child!
what a gift to give!
whenever anyone called her name,
'Amaris, come here!'
'Amaris, you're late,'
they would really be saying
you are loved, you are loved, you are loved

-loves n kisses-
felina

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOONYEN!
(:
hope you enjoy it girl







today's celebration was a brilliant one, im so proud of yiling, audrey and me for planning it. :D
it was burning with passion, ignited with excitement, and sprinkled with liberal amount of zippo.
im glad you enjoyed it baobei! :D

on a dimmer side, my gems really !@#$%^&*
i asked raphael to help me change my module, and while he was dropping my previous gems selection, the slot that was initially opened for psychology was taken up, leaving me gem-less.
but, a while later, i got jo to help me sign up his gems, which is slightly more interesting and refreshing than the rest of the gems that are available, such as world at your fingertips, personal selling, real estate revaluation, human resources practices and what not.
strike it, thecartoon thingy is a tad lot better than the available gems.
and being a kiasu singaporean, i told him to help me sign it up before the last slot is taken up, lest im stuck with those oh-so-interesting gems with nobody i know. dire straits, much?
BUT the fact that the gems is on a tuesday is a real bummer. i mean i start school at 12 initially on tues! but the friday slots are all taken up.
i should have stick with nutrition and wellness..


shucks, i should sleep this thing off.

every year. every semester. there will be a day when blood pressure shoots sky high, heart pounding rapidly against the chest, temper rises, and Singapore students all over Singapore will declare war with SAS.
im proud to say, i'm not spared from the anguish too.

THIS IS SO IRRITATING! i got nutrition and wellness! cause the rest of the friday's slots are snatched up in lightning speed, like a piece of meat in a piranha-filled pool. bloodsuckers
so pissed and i feel so damn cheated! there was 7 slots for the psychology class on fri, and when i clicked on it, it tells me class register full!
now i have to depend on my second slot and im going to camp for junwei's slot!!

RAH


lolli lolli

blog posts on weixuan's blog got me googling for poems, starting with emily adlam

shot through your heart and you're to blame
you give love a bad name
i played my part
you played your game
you give love a bad name

zee bff and i went out, supposedly to shop, but ended up frolicking at val's work place, frolick. any more yogurt and i will barf. ok, not likely. dont think i ever get sick of the peach yogurt. HAHA.

oh GOD~! with the maid around my dad keeps wanting us back for dinner, which is pretty hard to compromise since this is the last week of holidays and i want to spend it well.

enough of your rumblings, im sick of it. enough is enough.
but somehow, i understand your predicament, and i sympathize with you.
well, let's trust God for a breakthrough shall we?

okay! i found a new chillout place!!

GOTHAM

i saw it off this brochure lying on my sister's desk. looks really damn hip and happening!
and no, there's no batman or joker or two face there.

pastor's preaching is really awesome, and you can just see God's fingerprints in this sermon. once again, it made me stand in awe of God's legacy, and majesty. it's amazing how the secrets of the bible match so seamlessly with each other, it's truly God's at work.

i have to say i have too much time on hand, even after running around different places in a day, i still have plenty of time to spare.
after church, i went to visit wee junwei, even there's no yogurt awaiting for me like the previous time i went to visit val.
HAA, in any event, not an empty promise anymore, like he accused me of.

zee maid's has been rather good, i still think mummy's pretty fierce to her, not abusive kinda way, but let's just say, if im joy, i will quit the moment i see THE empress dowager. but i like her though, there's some communication breakdown at times, but overall, she's good i guess. (:

sometimes i think you really need change your attitude, especially when 4 other people find problem with it. though there's a tinkle of truth and reason in what you say, don't you think you could put it nicely, and try not to change every conversation you have with us to a heated quarrel. instead of thinking you know it the best, think for yourself why will the other person do otherwise, and stop insisting we are wrong. and reason sensibly, more than often you slide out of the point of discussion, which makes things more frustrating. cause when it happens, we couldn't be bothered to talk to you anymore, and hearing you venting your frustrations just makes any conversation-turned-arguments unbearable.

lord, i commit this problem to you and i rest in your finished work on the cross, and i believe you are the God who turned water into wine, and you will help to transform this problem into a blessing for the family. amen.

seven days to school.
i miss school, just a tiny weeny little bit.

im in love with saturday night live!

-loves n kisses-
felina

alright, the maid's name is joy. my mum gave her a new name, so it's easier to call.
"JOY COME!"
joy is indeed a joy, she has very pleasant features, always smiling, even when my mother was being so fierce and unfriendly( thank god for the daughters who are much more amiable), and she's very willing to learn. that's good i guess.

i think im gonna choose psychology for gems, and maths will be my second choice if there's no more slots for the first. and if there's no slots for both, woe to me then.

yeayea!
arrow later! :D
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love what pastor ben preached today.
every attack by the enemy, is the multiplier of GOD's blessings in my life.
:D

not saying that every attack is a blessing, but it's with the attacks, i can see GOD's blessings flowing even more in my life.

and check this out!




one and only hello kitty with the kebaya of the famous Singapore Girls.
:D
edwin's mother made it specially for my eldest sis's hello kitty.

neat huh?

-loves n kisses-
felina

time table's out and it's alright i guess, but what's with the 5 hours of break on friday! goodness, and it's ambrose's lesson in the morning, so we can't really skip that lesson.
as for the rest of the days, the timings are pretty reasonable, only with one 8am lesson, and that particular day will end early.
oh well. once again for my pre-semester oath: i'll try not to skip any lessons.
notice the keyword,"try".

the maid's coming today, and somehow im feeling the dread. my personal space will be compromised and honestly, i don't like that feeling. pardon me for my negativity, it's just that it's been more than a decade since my family employed a domestic helper, and there are adjustments to be made in order to accommodate her. i feel a little less incompetent not doing my own stuff like the laundry, ironing etc, afterall, i've been doing it for years now.

went to watch housebunny with josiah and junwei. sorry val and alast, i was super in the mood to watch that movie yesterday. it's those super duper bimbotic chickflick that requires no thinking at all, except parts that anna farris actually spout out some intellectual analogies, and came up with something smart to say. and the girls in the show are pretty hot, don't know what jo was thinking when he said they were just okay. either he's gay or he's too into jessica alba.

i just watched finish this beatles documentary: Beatles' biggest secrets. it's about the founding of beatles, road to sucess, backstage and behind the screen scandals, and their downfall. as much as im a fan of their music, i wasn't very aware of their history. just know small tidbits of it, but never fully understanding their past, unless someone tells me about it. so, the documentary was very interesting and amusing as well. there are moments my eyes just enlarged in surprise, at parts when they talked about lennon's sex scandals and intrepid sex life. i mean, i know john lennon is a queer guy, but seriously, there are some shocking facts that i got to know.


argh. hate the feeling of being prosecuted.

-loves n kisses-
felina

it was only a kiss how did it end up like that

maybe im taking alot of things granted, and im starting to regret. there wasn't much to hope for there and it's stupid of me just hoping things will get better. if i havent take things for granted, maybe i wouldn't be so disappointed.
now i just have to keep it out of mind, sight and heart, just like what raphael says, and it's gonna be difficult.

i just want to stay at home and take my own sweet time doing things, and not caring about other stuff. yes people, im retreating to my shell till i feel like coming out again.

on a happier note, i managed to get some tan, or burnt. and it's rather weird.

shit, im weird. weird and blue-y

time to watch videos to keep my mind occupied. :x